for all the times I needed to cry but didn't
for all the things I carry that weigh me down
for everything that keeps me from experiencing fullness
for all the times I needed to let go but didn't know how
for all the times I needed to fall apart but stubbornly held myself together
for all the times I couldn't say goodbye
for all the times I denied my grief
for all the times I didn't know how to give myself permission to feel
for all the times I wanted to reach out but felt self conscious
for all the times I misunderstood what it means to be brave
for all the mistakes and all the regrets
for all the things I wish I could take back
for all the times I didn't speak up, stand up, or show up
for all the missed opportunities
for all the times I said no instead of yes
for all the times I was too proud or too scared to surrender
for not knowing how to trust life, God, or myself
for all the times I couldn't see the truth
for all the countless experiences I felt powerless and inadequate
for all the times I gave up my power and silenced my own voice
for all the times I tried too damn hard
for all the times I pretended to be someone I'm not
for all the times I pulled inside, shut down, and refused to let people see who I am
for all the moments I felt moved and inspired by the small and unexpected things of life
for all the times I allowed my heart to break in pieces
for all the times I was aware of being right in the middle of God's palm
for all the moments I recognized I can never be separated from God
for those rare and precious moments I was acutely aware of love
for those rare moments when I fully understood acceptance
for those times I've been able to step outside myself
for those times I knew without a doubt that I am connected to all of life
for all the times I've lived from the best parts of myself
for all the times people have seen the truth of who I am
for those moments I extend compassion and tenderness to myself
for the times I nurture the world around me
for quiet stillness
for peace
for light
for life
for grace

Sorry you have given up on blogging. I really enjoyed your blog and I could connect with you more than anyone. Hope you are happy and at peace.
Posted by: Sugarsnap | January 10, 2009 at 09:59 PM
hey sweet soul ~
you just popped into my head
so i thought i'd reach out
and say ~~~
hello, love.
:)
*big hugs,
Leonie
Posted by: Goddess Leonie I Creative Goddess | December 21, 2008 at 04:57 PM
I just stumbled upon your blog in google reader, and I am so glad I did. Your words are so beautiful and moving. Thank you for adding goodness to the world.
Posted by: janehatesdick | December 12, 2008 at 07:04 AM
It's amazing how much comes out when we do these sorts of prompts. Your words are precious 'crystal drops' of truth!
Posted by: Gypsy Alex | December 07, 2008 at 04:55 PM
It's amazing how much comes out when we do these sorts of prompts. Your words are precious 'crystal drops' of truth!
Posted by: Gypsy Alex | December 07, 2008 at 04:55 PM
There exists such a honesty in your words.
Posted by: Carol | December 07, 2008 at 12:12 AM
This is so beautiful. I am happy you're back to posting. You're a wonerful human being.
Posted by: shawn | December 05, 2008 at 07:38 PM
OMG you're back! You've been back! Where have I been? I have to go to bed... it's after midnight.. but I'll be back. *hugs* I've missed you! xo
Posted by: joleen thiessen | December 04, 2008 at 12:15 AM
This creates such a lovely space around me. Thanks.
Posted by: Wenda Nairn | November 30, 2008 at 08:45 PM
hi girlie!!
I back and i found you!! You always have the most insightful things to say. I hope that you are well :)
Posted by: heidi | November 27, 2008 at 10:25 AM
beautiful.
simply beautiful.
xo
Posted by: megg | November 26, 2008 at 10:27 AM
Amazing words! Amazing that I think I've felt every last word.Thank you.My grandmother has lung cancer and isn't expected to make it through so I'm relating to your loss.I'm so sorry.I hear so many people these days telling me "Oh she's lead a long life.It'll be okay.Huh?.Losing our loved ones never feels right,and all to final." Can I have your permission to post this on my myspace blog? If you don't mind I'll put by anonymous! Have a beautiful evening, Carlyn
Posted by: Carlyn Souza | November 25, 2008 at 08:02 PM
y
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s
(warm enveloping hugs and a bar of chocolate too:)
Posted by: maddie | November 24, 2008 at 04:55 PM
You don't know me, I don't know you, except what I see of you here but this really touched me. Tears - so cathartic and healing. Thank you.
Posted by: kendalee | November 24, 2008 at 10:51 AM
so beautiful, a blessing indeed.
Posted by: katie | November 23, 2008 at 07:43 AM
so beautiful, a blessing indeed.
Posted by: katie | November 23, 2008 at 07:42 AM
For you, for me, for all of us.
I love this mix of sadness and happiness and hope and release. Lovely, and a truly perfect purple picture.
xoxo
Posted by: Frankie | November 23, 2008 at 06:12 AM
...for yourself
Posted by: jenica | November 21, 2008 at 07:40 AM
I can't express the ways in which this moves something tender and sore in me a bit closer to the gentle morning sunlight.
Posted by: hele | November 21, 2008 at 12:25 AM
Know that no matter how busy I can be, I never fail to read your blog. It's better than my first cup of coffee every single morning. I miss you! So close, yet so far. XOXOXO
Posted by: Irma | November 20, 2008 at 07:00 AM
Bless you...
tender
precious woman.
xoxoxo
Posted by: Goddess Leonie I Creative Goddess | November 20, 2008 at 01:09 AM
beautiful and full of such wisdom.
thinking of you and sending peace and love...
Posted by: liz elayne | November 19, 2008 at 11:21 PM